Reclaiming My Life
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When I was thinking about what I wanted for 2010 to be like for me as 2009 ended, I started making a list of things that went something like this:
- Join a gym again and get back into athlete shape (I had been working out at home since moving into center city Philadelphia mainly due to convenience and time, but in the process I had lost my athlete mindset and motivation and I was not proud or happy about that…)
- Save money for minor renovations and fixes on my home
- Give more love to those that are in my life and find new ways to put love into the universe
- Get to know my neighborhood better and explore/take advantage of the city more
- Adopt a dog
- Travel and relax more
- Spend more time with people that make me feel happy and good
- Begin to take steps to owning my own business
In making this list, it became clear that there was a common theme: I was reclaiming my life. I have been through a divorce (about 5 years ago now); been serial dating men who continually let me down; been wading my way through corporate America (yes, money makes the world go ‘round and so we all get sucked into the political vortex) and trying to define myself professionally; as well as countless other life-altering events.
Looking back at my experiences, I had come to know myself better (like discovering my love of clean eating and healthy cooking and realizing that is a true passion of mine…like loving that I have the confidence to stand up for myself in my personal and professional life and realizing that living my truth empowers me daily…) but I also had lost pieces of myself. It was time to find those pieces…time to reclaim my life.
I broke it down to four major areas that needed attention:
- Spiritual
- Physical
- Mental/Psychological
- Social
But the problem with breaking my desires into parts and pieces is that everything is connected and it is hard to focus on one area of your life without paying homage to other areas of your life. What you eat has an impact on your performance as a human as well as how you feel; what you think has an impact on how you treat your body and what energy you put into the universe…and so one. And so, part of my blog will be dedicated to my journey to reclaim my life and feel like the best version of ME…but it begins with what I am putting into my body and my recipes for health and wellness.
Physically Reclaiming My Life
When I joined the gym, I had set a goal that I would log 25 miles of cardio and 1.5 hours of weights/week. 3 weeks after joining, I can happily say that my clothes feel looser on me and fit me better and I feel stronger…happier…confident…fit.
I am more focused at work. I have more energy. I am sleeping like a baby, getting 7-9 hours on any given night. I am more motivated in life than I have been since college (which was the last time I remember feeling really good about myself and life). While the scale has not budged (and to be honest, I have never been overweight but my weight has fluctuated as life has taken me on its roller coaster), I feel better in my clothes and they fit me better. Perhaps some of the latter is mental - I am working out like an athlete so I feel like my clothes should fit me better and that I should sleep better and feel better – but this gets back to my point that everything is connected. The psychological benefits of working out have empowered me to feel like I can take on life’s challenges again…I may get knocked down again but I WILL get back up.
Next time on LunchLadyCynthia…more recipes and Happy Salmon Salad